i've lost...the will of my heart...defeated

i hate it...simply hate it...
math oh math why do you elude me...
it's always the same...so near yet so far...
can't even say to myself "faito! o!" after the paper.
simply crushing...
it's not humiliating anymore, it's defeating me...
resolve..i badly need it. but where do i start?
it's been so much toiling, i'm approaching the limits of human sanity..

unless i become immortal...
then i'll deal you a deadly blow...
make you regret the decision that you took...
come fight me! bring it on!

immortality seems a distant land away
i need to work towards it..
but how? i am uncertain of my tolerance level..

all i know
is that you can make a difference..

i need you to bring out that magic in me again